I love this crazy, tragic,
Sometimes almost magic,
Awful, beautiful life

This is so true, I completely love my life right now, even with all the things that suck in it, I still love it, I truly don't think I would change anything that has happened to me even if I could, I believe that it has shaped me into the person I am today and has made me able to love Brian and allow him to love me. So we were talking again this weekend about things in our past, childhood and such things, it's so funny because our lives seem so parallel. So, I talked to my school advisor on Friday, looks like it is going to take me about 3 years to complete my pre pharmacy courses. I also asked her about completing those courses in Boise, she said that would be no problem, that I can actually do them at BSU. I am really excited because I think that makes our choice to move to Boise pretty final. Now we need to get the house ready to sell and find jobs and register for school and such, so I think we're looking at a minimum of 4 months before we can go.
I sat and watched him last night as he was deep in thought, he is so amazing, I just hope that I could comfort him. I love the way he cares so much about his family and wants to take care of them and protect them. I hope I was some comfort to him. I love to just sit and watch him, it just makes me smile. He is so amazing, I still just can't seem to get over that. Maybe when we've been together for 10 years I'll have gotten over it, but right now I just can't see that happening. It's so weird to feel like that, everyday, every time I look at him. I still have a hard time believing it's true. I remember when we first met and he was in my class. I thought he was so cute and funny and I really wanted him to ask me out but I honestly never thought that would happen. I feel like every day when I wake up with him next to me I have to pinch myself just as a reminder that I'm not dreaming.
Kids are so funny. My kids love Brian, he is always doing all kinds of things for them that they love, but he also doesn't let them get away with doing things they aren't supposed to do and it seems they tend to remember those times the most. My son asks me last night as I'm tucking him in to bed "when is Brian going to not live with us?" I said well I think he's going to live with us for a very long time. He said that it was ok if he was there all day but that sometimes he had to go home to sleep because he wanted to sleep with me sometimes too. It was so cute, I asked him if it was hard having to share me and he said "yes." with those cute puppy eyes. LOL!