The day before you

I don't know what it is but I just can't stop hearing that song in my head. You know usually when you get a song stuck in your head it tends to drive you crazy even if you like the song. This one doesn't, I just want to hear it more. I might drive Brian crazy if I were to play it over and over again like I want to so I just play it over again in my head. It really hit me today that I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him. This is a scary revelation for me. I think I have known this since I knew I loved him but it never really hit me like it did today. Then to add to that he asks me at lunch what our wedding colors are going to be? WTF! LOL! I almost died. The thing that I think scares me so much is how fast everything is going. I told myself when I started dating again that I would have to be dating a guy exclusively for at least a year before I would even consider marriage but here I am, a month and a half in to it and I know without a doubt that I want to marry him. OMG! Now for those out there who are freaking out, no this does not mean that we are getting married right now. I have no doubt that we will eventually get married but I think there are a lot of things that will have to happen before that does. Of course the big one being him asking me to marry him. LOL! For some reason every time I listen to the first verse of that song I get chills and I can envision our wedding day. This is all totally insane to me. I just cannot fathom the love I have for him and the love he shows me. I just don't understand his love for me or what even attracted him to me in the first place. I have prayed to god so many times and asked him to help me find my true love, little did I know that through all of the heartache he brought Brian to me just at the right time. As has been said before god works in mysterious ways. I completely believe that now. Honestly I think that the lyrics to the song that started this whole thing are so entirely true to my life now.

I had all but given up
On finding the one that I could fall into
On the day before you
I was ready to settle for
Less than love and not much more
There was no such thing as a dream come true
Oh, but that was on the day before you

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

In your eyes I see forever
It makes me wish that my life never knew
The day before you
Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shapin' my heart for the day that I found you
You're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you-yeah, yeah