Life and Love

Life is so crazy right now. It's so insane to be so in love with someone yet have so many other things going on that you can't fully concentrate on the one you love. I hate that. I want to give him all of my attention. I wish I could spend every minute of every day with him. You know usually you still have to have time for yourself and time away from each other but with him I don't. I want to always be with him. It's never uncomfortable being around him. I never feel like I want him to go away or not be around him. I don't foresee that changing anytime soon either. I can see being married to him for the rest of my life. Honestly I think he's the only one I've ever truly felt that way about. I knew very early on with my ex that it wouldn't be forever but I kept kidding myself trying to make it seem different. It wasn't and I let it drag on way too long. I was talking with Brian the other night about us. We both agree that we are glad that it took this long for us to get together since we were both very different people when we first met. We have both grown so much. I still have a lot of changes to make but I have complete faith that we will be able to complete our growth together. I think that our coming together as more than friends has happened at the best time in both of our lives. I totally love almost everything about him. His smoking bothers me a bit but it's really something that everything else about him overrides. It's something I can live with even if he does it the rest of his life. Everything about the way he talks to me and looks at me and touches me and cuddles with me just makes me want him so much more. He asked why he is so wonderful. I have had the same thought about why he thinks I am so wonderful. All I can say is that he is everything I have ever dreamed of in the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. He makes me laugh all the time, he is considerate, loving, kind, sexy, he loves family, he loves my kids and my kids love him. He has done more for me than I think I even know. I don't know how else to explain it except that I love him in every sense of the word. I don't know how I ever lived my life without him and he is what I have been waiting for all of my life. I hope to spend the rest of my life with him.