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Well, J got the apartment on campus he was trying to get. I am glad. I don't know that having him live with me was going to work out. I think I've decided that I give up on Jared. I asked him last night what he meant by things will get better. He just said that he meant things would start getting better for me. WHAT!?! Where the hell that came from I don't know. I wasn't being all down on myself or anything. I have been in a really good mood and everything lately. I don't know why he would say that. Then today we were talking about how he had some time to talk to me a work a little more today, he said I should feel special and I said " nah, I would feel special if we made a date and you actually showed up" he just chuckled. That's what he does when he is avoiding a subject. Then he didn't say anything else. Figures. Anyway, I just don't think he is really ready for a real relationship and I am and I can't just wait around for him, so I guess if he wants to start something and I'm not already involved then we'll see what happens but other than that, it's his loss. I'm just going to keep on keepin' on and move on with my life. Like I said before I'm not going to just stand by and watch my life move on without me anymore. I have to keep going and whoever wants to be a part of that is going to have to keep up with me. Great news I got last night, as Jizr called me at 11:30 at night when I was in a dead sleep, took me a minute to realize what he was talking about when he yelled "She's Alive!!!" in my ear. Thanks for that nice wake up call, once I figured out what was going on it was very nice to know that he wasn't in nearly as much pain as Laura woke up from her coma. I think that's probably a very good sign for her. I hope and pray to god that he will keep it that way for years and years to come.