Busy, busy, busy.

Holy crap! I can't believe it's been so long since I blogged. Just haven't really had much time lately. We have been to Boise like 4 or 5 times in the last month. Seems like every weekend plus once during the week. It's crazy. I wish we could just move and then get a job when we get there instead of driving back and forth constantly, not only can we not afford to do that but I'm also just sick of the drive. I just want to be home. I am starting to feel like my sisters house is home. Anyway, things are not really moving along very fast on the job market. We really have to find something that pays better in order to be able to buy a house there. I am really starting to feel the stress of not having any money now. I hate this feeling so bad. Now my parents are hounding me, I think they are just realizing that I am actually serious about moving. I know that they want to protect me and they don't want to see me in the financial state that I am in but I have to make my own choices based on what I think is best for my family and this is what I think will be best. I cannot continue working here with the money I am making. Now the problem is actually telling my parents that they can't make my decisions for me and that I am going to make mistakes and they can't protect me from them. I just want to get this move over with so we can start our lives there. I can't wait. I feel like I am being distant with Brian a lot lately. I don't know why. I am trying to figure out what I am feeling and why. I'm pretty sure that it is because of the money situation and I just need to figure it all out.