Angry!

Ooooo!!!! I have never been so angry at him. I just wanted to scream at him and still do. I have been so frustrated with everything else and then for him to be playing games with me just pisses me off so bad I can hardly stand it. I had to take a walk last night when it happened because I was so mad....ok, that is really bad because I haven't done that in more than 2 1/2 years. I cannot understand his logic all it does it make things worse none of this is helping and even if I do take care of the situation that started this whole thing it still will not make any difference the next time. I am not going to continue to play this game. I refuse to play any games of any sort, this is not what it should be about. I thought he felt the same way but apparently not. GOD!!!! I hate being this mad, I do not want to be mad at him but this has just gone too far this time. And so, we sit in silence. We did not even sleep in the same room last night. This is the first time this has ever happened. I just want to cry. I don't know what else to do, if I open my mouth to talk to him I'm just going to scream at him. Grrrrrrr.........what am I supposed to do, just not talk to him ever again? That's not going to happen but I don't seem to be cooling down at all but I don't want to scream at him either. This is also a matter that can not wait, I can't believe he has put it off this long, taking it this far. Ok, well for now I am just going to go sit and read and see if that helps any.