Updating....

So I know it's been a while...hope everyone likes the new look!!! Thanks to my beloved for knowing what I love and coming up with amazing ideas just from my one thought. So, what's up here...well not a lot. Brian and I have had much time together since we are both job hunting...hopefully that will end soon, although it's not because I don't enjoy being with him all the time, it's because well...in the end as everything does it comes down to money. One interesting thing has happened, interestingly I got a letter in the mail the other day. I thought it was very odd and then I read who it was from....Jamaal. I couldn't believe it! What a nerve he has!!! Oh! And guess where it was sent from! Jail!!! He insists that he is there because of the credit card charges but I just don't see how that could possibly be since they credit card company is going after me for the money. I have tried to locate the information online as to why he is actually incarcerated but I don't have any money to pay for a criminal record check and as of yet have only come sites that charge for the information. I did download a form to request the information from the county jail where he is serving time but that still costs $10. So, as soon as I can I will find out. I let Brian read the letter, I don't think he was very happy....pretty much his only comment was "sometimes things are better left unread". He totally wrote all this crap about how he was so sorry for stealing my money and that he will pay me back as soon as he gets out and gets a job and how he wants me back and all this stupid shit!!! It just made me so mad. I want so badly to take him to court and try to recover some of the money but at the same time I just don't want to put forth the effort...I don't have the energy to deal with it...everyone keeps pushing me and I just don't want to have anything to do with him ever again...I just want to put it behind me as quickly as possible. I can't pay the credit card any money right now and it's really hurting my credit but I'm afraid that it's just not going to change anytime soon...even if I did take him to court, especially now that he's in jail and apparently not getting out for 2 years. I think I will probably write him back just to tell him one more time what a piece of shit he is and that I hope he rots in hell. I have everything I could ever hope or dream for in a man and that will never change. I will spend the rest of my life with Brian. He has already brought so many of my dreams to life and I have no doubt that the rest of my life with him will be full of more of those dreams coming true.

Well, I'm off to bed now...I will post again soon and try keeping this more up to date.