*sigh*

So things are going well, I think anyway. We are getting ready to move again, I really didn't want to but we would just be stretched too thin to try and pay the rent at this place by ourselves. It will be kind of nice to have a place to our own again though. I just wish we had the money to keep having Brian go to school full time so he could finish more quickly. It's going to take forever at this rate. We're looking at something like at least 6 years to get a 4 year degree. In the mean time we both continue to make pretty small wages compared to what Brian could be making with his degree. And he'd be doing something he really loves. That's my goal too, to do something I really love. As of yet I haven't figured out what that will be but I do know that I would like to be able to only have to work the hours that the kids are in school so I can be home to see them on and off the bus, especially in these early years. This next semester is going to be really tough. Brian working 31 hours a week plus a 12 credits of classes. I don't know what's going to happen but I really hope we can keep the stress at bay so we don't end up in a real mess because of it. As it is the biggest issue I have is that I don't see us actually getting married or even officially getting engaged until Brian finishes school. This is very depressing for me. You know, it's mostly just a piece of paper that says we're married but for me I think it's more about the ceremony and the rings and those outwardly things. I want to be able to pledge my love to him in front of my friends and family and I want my dad to walk me down the aisle. I didn't have that before and I definitely regret it and I want to have all of that with the one I know I am truly meant to be with. It really doesn't have to be anything fancy. I just really and truly don't want it to be 6 or 7 or 8 or more years away. I would like to have another child too and I don't want to do that until we are married. I really would rather not be in my 30's when that happens either. I just don't know what's going to happen with all of that.