I miss having friends......

I really miss Laurellee and my mom sooooo much, they are two of my best friends. I talk to them on the phone when I have time and when I remember but it's just not the same, I miss going to mom & dad's on Sundays and having dinner and just hanging out, and going shopping with mom even though I usually don't buy anything and I really don't like shopping. It's just one of those things that mom and I always did and I loved it. I got to spend tons of time with her. I can always confide in Laurellee, she always has something to say about everything and even when she makes me feel bad, she makes me feel better, and can make me laugh like crazy. I'm worried about them both. Mom is getting older and still smoking, although she hasn't had any major health issues but I don't see her or talk to her like I used to and it really makes me sad. Laurellee seems to be going through some rough times with her health, she keeps having something go wrong. I wish I could be there for her, to help her when Brian can't be there and when she really needs a friend. I hate that I can't just run over to her house and hang out whenever. I miss having friends that I could just hang out with whenever things were rough or I needed a laugh or just to go have a good time. I have none of that here. I have Brian and yes that is a lot and I couldn't do it without him. He is also my best friend. But it's different. He has friends to go hang out with, friends from work and Booboo that moved here a few months back, and his brother and of course his mom. I have friends at work, but none of them are under the ripe old age of 40. I can relate to some of the things they talk about but for the most part they are really nice ladies but no one I would go just hang out at their house or have them come hang out at mine. I have my sister but we very seldom get to do much together, she has a pretty hectic schedule and Brian hates it when I go over there. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to live in IF again, I really hate that area. I just miss my family and friends so much. I decided not to go to IF for Thanksgiving this year. I am really having a hard time with that decision. I really wanted to be able to have a long weekend at home so I don't feel like I need a vacation from my vacation every time we have a long weekend. So we are going to IF this weekend for just a 2 day trip. Brian really makes me mad some times. He is all about we can't leave until his homework gets done but yet he makes no effort to make sure it will be done in a timely manner, he is already 2 days behind on his homework and has done absolutely nothing tonight and then decides not only is he not doing any homework tonight, he's going to go play pool. WTF!!!!! I am pissed off beyond belief. Normally he's the one all over me because we need to leave because he wants to get there at a decent time and now that I'm the one pushing him he just doesn't give a shit. He's so hypocritical sometimes. GAWD it pisses me off!!!