So, yeah......

I know it's been way too long since I posted last. I don't know what my deal is. Some of it is that we have been pretty busy the last while but I think I also feel like I'm trying to hold my thoughts in. I'm not really sure why. So just to update everyone, valentines didn't turn out to be all that great because well, Friday came and I was so excited for Brian and I to be able to go out and have a good time and I wanted to see what we were going to be doing. Brian sent me flowers at work, very pretty and an amazing card, as always. I sat down at my desk with a big smile and the phone rang, I assumed it was Brian, but it wasn't. It was my sister, I could tell there was something wrong, a million things ran through my head. It was my grandma on my dad's side. She wasn't expected to live through the night. Jen and I talked a bit and I cried a lot. We had been expecting something like this for a while since she has been so frail and is in her late 80's. So Brian came and picked me up from work and we packed for several days and prepared for the worst while hoping for the best. We got in to Idaho Falls around 4:30pm and dropped the kids off at the ex's grandparents place and headed to the hospital. She could hardly speak and barely had her eye's open but apparently that was an improvment from that morning. So we sat with her and waited. We stayed the whole weekend and she gradually got better each day. I am so thankful for that. She was released from the hospital on Tuesday but they had to make her stay in a nursing home because she wasn't strong enough to go to the bathroom on her own. I talked to my mom yesterday and grandma is home now. She is still on oxygen and doesn't get up much but hopefully she will continue to get strength back. It's been a long time since I've had to deal with the death of anyone close to me. The last one was my grandpa on my dad's side, that was when I was about 12. I miss him so much. Brian was very supportive and wanted to be there for anything that happened. I love him so much and I am so glad he was there with me. Needless to say it put quite a big damper on our plans. He liked what I got him for valentines though and that was good and he got me some good stuff too!

We finally got a new bed, king size, YAY!!!! And we got a new, used, car. It's a Honda Accord, has high miles but runs well and will work great for just running around town so we can stop putting so many miles on the Escape. Better gas mileage too! Well, off to check on lunch. I'll post again soon. I promise!