Some days

You know there are just some days when you wish everything in your life would just go away and you could just have a free day with no worries or annoyances or bothers of any kind. Do you ever wonder why life seems to go by so much faster when you have all of those things. I remember when I was a kid how the days seemed to take forever to get over with and how summer vacation seemed like an eternity. I miss those days. If I could just have a break where I could have only a few days that were like that again it would be splendiferous! Don't get me wrong I love my kids with all my heart and soul and I would never trade them for anything but there are just some days when I wish I didn't have the responsability. And it seems more often lately that not only do I want to have a man in my life to have someone to share myself and my family with but also to help with all of the responsabilities that we all have as we get older and have families. I want someone that can help with the burden of those things both financially and mentally. I am the type of person who does not spend a lot of money and I normally don't splurge on many things. I have plenty of self control when it comes to telling myself no on things but when someone asks me for help I don't seem to be able to say no. I don't know if that all goes back to my poor self image but I am sure that it is a good possibility that it does. I don't mind helping out a friend when they are in need if it is a small amount of money as long as I have the money to cover it but it's when it turns in to large sums of money when I begin to feel taken advantage of. Again, it's my own fault because I always agree to do it but now looking back at my own finances I can see that it has gone overboard and I totally have to stop it now before I get myself in too deep. These days I know I need to get better control of my feelings and my emotions. I let them get in the way too often I'm afraid. I need to look at the big picture more often.
I just have to say that sometimes it's a little scary at how alike BH and I are. It's insane how last night we talked about what a total tard I am and then I blogged for the first time. I sent him the link and he said he would have to read it today. Well, I went to his blog and found how we seemed to blog about something very similar! It's insane! I guess that's why I am able to talk to him about so many more things than I am a lot of people. I know he won't sugar coat anything and he will just tell me what an idiot I am when I am being one. Thanks for everything. ;)